...The Love I Have For You

I picked up the phone and dialed your number, but you weren't there
I hung up without leaving you a message because I was too scared
I looked at the picture that was posted on your profile
I saw it yesterday too, and the day before, it always makes me smile
I'm always on the internet to see if you may come and say "hello"
But you don't seem to find the time to, you must be a busy fellow
A day passes by and still I wonder
What it would be like with you
Another day goes by and I wonder more
What it would be like with you
I wanted to tell you that I liked your attire at school yesterday
I suppose you were too busy talking with friends to even look my way
I can't help wanting you, when you're blatantly there in my sights
You are everything I cannot be, you are my want, my need, my life
I love you, can't you tell by the way I glance over at where you are
My eyes that plead for you, but you can't see me from afar
A day passes by and still I wonder
If I could ever be with you
Another day goes by and still I wonder
What I should do, to prove my love for you
I went home again, and you were walking just a few feet behind
I was alone, and you were oblivious to me, wouldn't even say "hi"
Am I so ugly, so worthless, to just be this kid walking ahead of you?
What am I in your eyes? I wish you'd just tell me the truth!
Why don't you care, I go home at night and cry over and over again
I'll go home again tonight and cry as I write a letter to you in pen
Today passes by and still I wonder
Why I can't be with you
Tonight rolls around and I wonder
How I can get this letter to you
The darkness sets in and I begin to wonder
How I can prove my love to you
Before my mind explodes I conclude:
I'll slit my wrists for you.

~ Bret Campbell/2005